I can honestly say (I think) that my wife and I show compassion to people. But I can also honestly say (I think) that we’re also a little like automaton droids who have no feelings. I have no feelings because I’m an even tempered guy who seeks to cultivate peace in his surroundings–essentially, extremes are avoided and an easy going or laid back emotional response to things is safe and manageable. Jess is more of a pleasure seeker as a person, generally trying to enjoy the good life and avoiding painful stuff. This leads both of us toward a path of not often experiencing extreme emotions (I should say here that I’m actually more thinking about negative emotions…crying I should say.)

So for me to turn into a crier over the last 48 hours has been awkward and humorous all at the same time. I can’t stop tearing up. About everything. Insignificant things. Dumb things. Funny things. Touching things.

Here’s a list off the top of my head of what’s brought tears to my eyes over the last 48 hours. Oh, and let me preface this by saying that this is an awesome and completely honest list:

• X-Men 2 the movie
• Listening to Edwin Mccain sing “I’ll be”
• Listening to Enrique Iglesias sing “I can be your hero baby”
• Emails where people tell me they’re praying for me
• Reading some of Jesus’ words this morning
• Watching Law and Order
• Telling my wife that I teared up while watching X-Men
• Journaling this morning
• Reading about people’s plans to pray for me during the surgery
• Writing this list

I blame my ‘roid rage.